Minor Movements - 6

"And I just lost my mind, but I still got you."

You've been studying for the SAT exam for a while now. You realized this summer that this is your last shot to get out of rural life. You have been a ranch hand all of your life. It's now your senior year, and you're applying to colleges.

The last couple of attempts didn't go so well. You can do the English section, but math has never been your strong suit. You're glad that your boyfriend has been tutoring you. It's brought you from a 400 to a projected 700 on a good day. He's great. He's the kind of guy that you know will leave his mark on the world. He says that he wants to work for NASA one day.

You are about to take the math section of your last SAT exam. Your heart rate is at 100 BPM. They took your Garmin watch away, but you know your heart. After all, you run cross country. You're confident though. You know that you can do it. Your boyfriend would be proud.

Your exam comes back. It wasn't the score you wanted. You thought it was an easy exam. Life showed you that it wasn't. You and your boyfriend applied to all of the same schools. The relationship matters more to you than anything but God.

Your boyfriend has been talking to you about the future. He paints a picture where both of you will be old, crusty, and in love. Your heart rate is back at 100 BPM. You don't think you will get into the school he actually wants to go to with the score you got.

It hurts. You cry. You mourn. You take a couple of days to get over it. Your boyfriend is there. He said you won't remember this when you have grandchildren together. You don't know if you'll remember this moment, but for now, that's enough.